Unemployed again....

This picture isn't my husband but it could be,it looks exactally like he looked yesterday carrying his box of stuff from his desk home. This is not the first time he has walked in like this but oh god I hope its the last. He got layed off while we were taking a stay- cation becouse we are really still recovering from his 13 months of no work just over a year ago.

This time we kinda thought he was safe for awhile. I mean he was working in home forclosures this time. Booming right? Well the company he worked for lost thier biggest client last week,50% of thier business. So his company laid off 23 people of which he was the 23rd to be picked...yea crap luck for sure. So here we are again. We spent the first day kinda stunned ,I admit I cried off and on. Being unemployed is cruel and it slams the self esteem. This is the 4th time in 12 years that we have delt with this. It is hard on the spouse thats still working becouse they feel the pressure and the person that is trying so hard to find a job and can't feels worthless. Now we are just numb. We know how hard it is out there,believe me. I am starting to think I actually know more people out of work than working..... .

I know it can always be worse and I know in some ways we are more fortunate that some. Yea yea yea. It still sucks pretty bad and once again I feel the small knot of fear creep into the pit of my stomach. Sorry for the vent ,just unloading some crap. Oh and to top off the great week, some lunkheads putting in sprinkler systems at the condo cut throught our Comcast line and we had no internet,phone service or TV for 3 of the days we were off on our staycation!!

Now I get to go back to work Thursday and you know what I don't feel rejuvinated or refreshed like I was hoping,just more stressed out than ever! Ok,I'll stop now.